Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Changes?

Hi :) As you can see, I've changed this template thing or whatever it's called. Sooo, I've been thinking and I think I might stop blogging like this, or just stop blogging anyhow. I mean why am I even doing this? No reason. Yea sure it's easier to write about things and all but why would I post those things on the internet ffs? This isn't really an announcement about me stopping blogging, but just a thought that's been coming across my mind lately. I'm planning on buying a typewriter. I mean I already made my mind about that, it's just a very hard thing to find. And this is stupid I want to write so much stuff and it's basically not possible. Blaaahh, whatever. I'm gonna go now, I don't know if I'll write any more posts here aaaaand... That's it. Bye, it was nice while it lasted. Like it lasted. We'll pretend it did. And I'm not saying that it doesn't anymore.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Ever.

Hello imaginary readers. I'm not really going to write about anything worth reading today, so you can skip this post if you want to. Although I hope you won't. It's kinda nice to share this misery with someone, even if they're imaginary. This day was really awesome so far. But it doesn't seem like it's going to continue it's awesomeness. I feel kinda empty again and I hate this. Everything. I hate how this day was awesome and I felt really happy and relaxed and then it was all ruined. Why the heck am I so moody? I'll just pretend that I'm fine and happy and everything and then maybe I'll really start thinking I'm happy so I'll be happy not knowing that I'm actually not. Remember when I told you I'm downloading a new Radiohead album? Well, I have. And it's good. I read this review and it said that it's not as good as their old stuff, but I just think it's just kinda different. And experimenting's good, right? Nevermind, I like their new album. At least I liked it yesterday. I wouldn't be surprised if I found out that I don't really like it any more. That happens all the time. I want to dye my hair orange. I don't really care if it will look bad on me. Like anything looks good bahaha. The only thing important is that it's orange. And I want some kind of a machine which makes me all kinds of different shirts I want. That's stupid. Why'd I need a machine for making shirts? Why would I need anything. I want one, just one person who I'll be able to talk to. Like that's possible. I'm an idiot. I don't talk to people. Maybe to one person, but that's not even real talking. It is. But I want one more person. I thing I'm going crazy. World's not stupid, people are. I feel like there are two persons inside me. Me, and me. Different mes, but still mes. I hate the stupid melancholic me. No, I don't. If it wasn't for that me, the other me wouldn't be that me. My mes are stupid. They don't know what they want, but they sure want something, and then they just feel retarded for not having what they want, but not even knowing what they want. Idiots. Gonna go now, bye...

Thursday, March 24, 2011

White fields.

Bonjour my friends. How's it going? What kind of a question is that, I never ask things like that. Nevermind. Well, hello again just without the how's it going thing. I'm not going to school this week because I'm kinda sick? Not like sick - sick, or ill or anything like that I was just a little bit dizzy yesterday and my mother kinda freaked out, she was all like: 'No, no, you can't go to school like that, do you want to faint somewhere blahblah'. And I really don't mind not going to school so... you know :evillaugh: I feel pretty good now, better than usual, I could even say that I'm a liiiiiiiiiiittle bit happy, but that's an extremely small amount of happiness. Not that I'm always sad or something like that, I just don't feel anything except extreme boredom and emptiness most of the time. Whatever, the thing that matters is that I'm happy and bored. Bored and happy. Happy in my boredom. Bored in my happiness. That sounds wrong. Like I'm actually happy, but bored being happy, which I most certainly am not. Nevermind, I guess it's just unexplainable. There are like what? Two persons I know who would understand it. Maybe three. No, not three. Well three could understand, but two do. I don't even know the third person that well. Doesn't matter. Change of subject. I've been listening to Prince in the last two hours. I know like seriously? I don't even know any of his songs. But this one is kinda stuck in my head. Here it is. I'm not even into this kind of music. I've been listening to this Serbian band 'Repetitor' a lot lately too. They're really good. If you're interested you can download their album here. They have a really interesting album cover, something kinda indie, dark side of the moon-ish blaah thing? I like it a lot. 
I'm also downloading the new Radiohead album. And I'm also going to go now : ) Bye.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Strawberry juice.

Hello :)
I had this weird dream last night. But not like weird weird, just kinda awkward. Maybe a little scary too. I believe that my subconsciousness would be a really strange person if it was a person. I also dreamt about some really nice blue trousers :O I want them. I'll have to find them somewhere.. It was a really nice shade of blue, something like this. I hope I'll find them soon. You know what? I can't wait for the summer vacation. I have no idea what I'm going to do, but that's the point. Why would I know what to do? I'll just do whatever comes to my mind. Well, that's what I do all the time (not really but almost), but when there's no school theres no fool. Bahaha, that didn't mean anything I just wrote it cuz it rhymes. I like waiting rooms. I guess not many people like waiting rooms, because they're all in a hurry and everything but I kinda like them very much. Especially when you have a phone full of good music, headphones and a good book. It doesn't really matter where you are when you have those things, but waiting rooms are kinda special. They have some movie-like atmosphere, I don't know. Nevermind, I can't explain that.. Do you remember those shoes I told you I ordered off ebay? Well, they sent me an email saying that the size 6 is sold out and asked if I want another model or I'll wait. Isn't that just great? I don't know why was I even thinking about everything going well. I guess it was just too good to be true. The good side - I'll now be able to buy those pine green Chucks. I've been listening to The Misfits a lot lately, I feel kinda Misfitsy. Here you go. Did you know that you cannot dream of someone you've never seen? I mean a person. I didn't know that.. Just read it about half an hour ago. Even if you dream of someone who seems to be a person you've never seen - you've seen him/her but you just don't remember because you probably didn't pay attention to him/er, but your Hippocampus did (that's the part of the brain which is used for memorizing all kinds of things). That might be interesting. Good bye now. See you, or not. Bye :)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Wasteland.

Hello. This is going to be a short one. Like a weekly update or something like that.
So, this week couldn't be worse. I have at least one test every day. But let's not care about that. I'm going to pretend that this week's gonna be awesome. At least the weekend will. There's this Beatles cover band playing and I'm really looking forward to seeing them. It seems as there are many things going on here now. Maybe there actually are? Nah, what could be happening here. I'm gonna go now. I'll try to write a new post tomorrow. See you :)


A song.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Runaway.

Have you ever been on some kind of a really fast carousel? So fast that you can't see anything clearly just the contours of different things around you. You're sitting on that horse thing and spinning around not being able to control anything that's happening, not being able to stop it. Even worse, you're going in circles - seeing all the same things over and over again. WHY THE HACK CANT YOU JUST JUMP OUT?! Why can't you just jump out? What? You think you'll get hurt? I can't tell you you won't, because that would mean that I know. And me knowing that would mean that I jumped. And I haven't. Unfortunately. But I really want to. Another but - I can't. I can't just jump and leave everything spinning. Still I wish I could. I have a lot more to say but I just can't write, I'm just getting angry. So bye.


Here's a song, a friend sent it to me and it's goood. See you :)