Ja cu nekoga da ubijem. Bilo koga.

What now

stupidities. hfsdjkahfklehfalkusdhfiushfniugahlsdheskaf

Write my literature essay please.

Ladies and gentleman

Looks like I write here only when I'm in a bad mood huh? "Ladies and gentleman, from LA, California - The Doors!" is what I just heard. Nevermind. Well good afternoon to you too. I have to write this essay for my literature class and the subject is 'loneliness'. The more I think about it, the less likely I am to actually write it. :nervousbreakdowns: I also hate the fact that some fjsdljfli 'not knowing anything' people are going to write it without a single problem. Not that I know something, I'm even worse there. fsdfjk nevermind

I plan on bringing this blog back from the dead aaaaaand painting my room. That's about it. as;klfd;slkgodsgj[deijgkillerontheroadjafl; Do you know the warm progress under the stars? Do you know we exist? Have you forgotten the keys to the kingdom? Have you been borne yet and are you alive...

Opet

Dobar dan, dobro vece. Opet sam na srpskom. Ne znam sto... Htedoh samo da kazem da mi se nesto ne pise ovih dana blog, tako da necu pisati dok mi se ne bude opet pisalo :) 
Dovidjenja dragi blože. 
Bože haha
Ateista haha
Cao
haha

Dobar dan?

E, blože, pa pade mi na pamet nesto. Ti mene nikada ne ču na srpskom, jel da? Hah, vidis li ti to. E pa izuzetno mi je zao, al ja na srpskom da pisem ne mogu, nije mi lepo, niti su mi lepe recenice. Mozda dobijes s vremena na vreme neki apdejt ovakav, ali cisto sumnjam. Hajd pa se vidimo!

Title

Hey there, I'm really sorry but I can't think of any interesting titles for these posts, so I'll have to use what I have. My sister moved away today, but it's not as bad as I expected it to be, since she'll be coming here every weekend... My mother is crazy. And this is not me as a typical teenager saying their parents are crazy, my mother is really crazy ;) Only two more days left till school and that's pretty bad, but I guess it had to happen once. Also, tomorrow is my birthday, which I really don't like, and I really hope people won't make much fuss about it, come on I'm closer to death (which is not that bad) but why would anyone celebrate that? Anyway, I was thinking about it, and I realised that I'm going to be sixteen, and I somehow thought that I was gonna be seventeen, which is really weird. I guess I thought since my sister is sixteen it would be logical for me to be seventeen now, but no. Anyway, that was pretty awkward. I'd like to be seventeen, that's really close to eighteen, and eighteen is considered to be a legal age for anything or whatever, so I'm basically an adult. In Austria and some other countries you can vote aged sixteen, which is really nice, I'd like to be able to vote. But I also wouldn't like some other people my age to vote, so I guess it's fair for none of us to vote then. I'm gonna go now, see you.

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A stupid post which had to be deleted.

What's the worst thing?

Stupid post which had to be deleted.

Hello!

Look at this: Hello! Have you ever noticed that it's actually hell-o, like hell. Oh hell! Hell oh! Hello... Huh, that's interesting. There's a hell in hello. It's Monday. Mondays suck, don't they? I accidentally erased everything, but luckily there was a draft saved so it's all okay now. Anyway, five months have passed and I've tried lots of things. I tried doing graffiti but it didn't work, writing a book - that failed too, drawing, painting, writing a diary, playing harmonica, photography, playing guitar, cycling, even swimming, and guess what? Yes, none of it worked. I can't believe what kind of a person I am, I can't do anything. ANYTHING. Well I guess I'm just too stupid for it. The thing is - I want to be good at it as soon as I try it for the first time, but I'm too lazy to practice. Yes, you could say I have no talent when it comes to writing, drawing or painting and you could also say that I'm to clumsy for sports, but come on I couldn't even learn how to play an instrument, and you do need talent for that, but if you ask me you need more practice. And that's why I have never, and will never do anything with my life. I can't see myself doing anything in the future, I'm not good at anything. I do know English a bit, and thanks god (I'm an atheist, this is just like a phrase) for that, so I at least have something to try and study (concerning college/faculty/however you call it). So, that's about it. You can see I'll probably end up living on street or dying young, thanks to my wonderful laziness, and I'm also an idiot for not doing anything to change it. And my bestfriend-sister-twin is moving to another town which is just great. Life is really good for me, isn't it :D

There and back again huh?

Hello there bloggity blog. Haven't seen you in a while,  have I? During my solongsocalled 'absence' I haven't become smarter or more sane or anything you're probably supposed to become in five months, so we can say I wasted 'em right? Not more conscious, not more talented, not more anything, except maybe a bit more of an idiot. Anyway, let's get back to the topic, which I think would be why I am writing this again. Well, to be honest I don't really know. I guess you need something to keep you going inblablalblalbalkfjdsalkfs

The rest of the post has been deleted due to the authors thought that it revealed too much and was too stupid for the great mass media called the internet.

Changes?

Hi :) As you can see, I've changed this template thing or whatever it's called. Sooo, I've been thinking and I think I might stop blogging like this, or just stop blogging anyhow. I mean why am I even doing this? No reason. Yea sure it's easier to write about things and all but why would I post those things on the internet ffs? This isn't really an announcement about me stopping blogging, but just a thought that's been coming across my mind lately. I'm planning on buying a typewriter. I mean I already made my mind about that, it's just a very hard thing to find. And this is stupid I want to write so much stuff and it's basically not possible. Blaaahh, whatever. I'm gonna go now, I don't know if I'll write any more posts here aaaaand... That's it. Bye, it was nice while it lasted. Like it lasted. We'll pretend it did. And I'm not saying that it doesn't anymore.

Ever.

Hello imaginary readers. I'm not really going to write about anything worth reading today, so you can skip this post if you want to. Although I hope you won't. It's kinda nice to share this misery with someone, even if they're imaginary. This day was really awesome so far. But it doesn't seem like it's going to continue it's awesomeness. I feel kinda empty again and I hate this. Everything. I hate how this day was awesome and I felt really happy and relaxed and then it was all ruined. Why the heck am I so moody? I'll just pretend that I'm fine and happy and everything and then maybe I'll really start thinking I'm happy so I'll be happy not knowing that I'm actually not. Remember when I told you I'm downloading a new Radiohead album? Well, I have. And it's good. I read this review and it said that it's not as good as their old stuff, but I just think it's just kinda different. And experimenting's good, right? Nevermind, I like their new album. At least I liked it yesterday. I wouldn't be surprised if I found out that I don't really like it any more. That happens all the time. I want to dye my hair orange. I don't really care if it will look bad on me. Like anything looks good bahaha. The only thing important is that it's orange. And I want some kind of a machine which makes me all kinds of different shirts I want. That's stupid. Why'd I need a machine for making shirts? Why would I need anything. I want one, just one person who I'll be able to talk to. Like that's possible. I'm an idiot. I don't talk to people. Maybe to one person, but that's not even real talking. It is. But I want one more person. I thing I'm going crazy. World's not stupid, people are. I feel like there are two persons inside me. Me, and me. Different mes, but still mes. I hate the stupid melancholic me. No, I don't. If it wasn't for that me, the other me wouldn't be that me. My mes are stupid. They don't know what they want, but they sure want something, and then they just feel retarded for not having what they want, but not even knowing what they want. Idiots. Gonna go now, bye...

White fields.

Bonjour my friends. How's it going? What kind of a question is that, I never ask things like that. Nevermind. Well, hello again just without the how's it going thing. I'm not going to school this week because I'm kinda sick? Not like sick - sick, or ill or anything like that I was just a little bit dizzy yesterday and my mother kinda freaked out, she was all like: 'No, no, you can't go to school like that, do you want to faint somewhere blahblah'. And I really don't mind not going to school so... you know :evillaugh: I feel pretty good now, better than usual, I could even say that I'm a liiiiiiiiiiittle bit happy, but that's an extremely small amount of happiness. Not that I'm always sad or something like that, I just don't feel anything except extreme boredom and emptiness most of the time. Whatever, the thing that matters is that I'm happy and bored. Bored and happy. Happy in my boredom. Bored in my happiness. That sounds wrong. Like I'm actually happy, but bored being happy, which I most certainly am not. Nevermind, I guess it's just unexplainable. There are like what? Two persons I know who would understand it. Maybe three. No, not three. Well three could understand, but two do. I don't even know the third person that well. Doesn't matter. Change of subject. I've been listening to Prince in the last two hours. I know like seriously? I don't even know any of his songs. But this one is kinda stuck in my head. Here it is. I'm not even into this kind of music. I've been listening to this Serbian band 'Repetitor' a lot lately too. They're really good. If you're interested you can download their album here. They have a really interesting album cover, something kinda indie, dark side of the moon-ish blaah thing? I like it a lot. 

I'm also downloading the new Radiohead album. And I'm also going to go now : ) Bye.

Strawberry juice.

Hello :)
I had this weird dream last night. But not like weird weird, just kinda awkward. Maybe a little scary too. I believe that my subconsciousness would be a really strange person if it was a person. I also dreamt about some really nice blue trousers :O I want them. I'll have to find them somewhere.. It was a really nice shade of blue, something like this. I hope I'll find them soon. You know what? I can't wait for the summer vacation. I have no idea what I'm going to do, but that's the point. Why would I know what to do? I'll just do whatever comes to my mind. Well, that's what I do all the time (not really but almost), but when there's no school theres no fool. Bahaha, that didn't mean anything I just wrote it cuz it rhymes. I like waiting rooms. I guess not many people like waiting rooms, because they're all in a hurry and everything but I kinda like them very much. Especially when you have a phone full of good music, headphones and a good book. It doesn't really matter where you are when you have those things, but waiting rooms are kinda special. They have some movie-like atmosphere, I don't know. Nevermind, I can't explain that.. Do you remember those shoes I told you I ordered off ebay? Well, they sent me an email saying that the size 6 is sold out and asked if I want another model or I'll wait. Isn't that just great? I don't know why was I even thinking about everything going well. I guess it was just too good to be true. The good side - I'll now be able to buy those pine green Chucks. I've been listening to The Misfits a lot lately, I feel kinda Misfitsy. Here you go. Did you know that you cannot dream of someone you've never seen? I mean a person. I didn't know that.. Just read it about half an hour ago. Even if you dream of someone who seems to be a person you've never seen - you've seen him/her but you just don't remember because you probably didn't pay attention to him/er, but your Hippocampus did (that's the part of the brain which is used for memorizing all kinds of things). That might be interesting. Good bye now. See you, or not. Bye :)

Wasteland.

Hello. This is going to be a short one. Like a weekly update or something like that.
So, this week couldn't be worse. I have at least one test every day. But let's not care about that. I'm going to pretend that this week's gonna be awesome. At least the weekend will. There's this Beatles cover band playing and I'm really looking forward to seeing them. It seems as there are many things going on here now. Maybe there actually are? Nah, what could be happening here. I'm gonna go now. I'll try to write a new post tomorrow. See you :)

A song.

Runaway.

Have you ever been on some kind of a really fast carousel? So fast that you can't see anything clearly just the contours of different things around you. You're sitting on that horse thing and spinning around not being able to control anything that's happening, not being able to stop it. Even worse, you're going in circles - seeing all the same things over and over again. WHY THE HACK CANT YOU JUST JUMP OUT?! Why can't you just jump out? What? You think you'll get hurt? I can't tell you you won't, because that would mean that I know. And me knowing that would mean that I jumped. And I haven't. Unfortunately. But I really want to. Another but - I can't. I can't just jump and leave everything spinning. Still I wish I could. I have a lot more to say but I just can't write, I'm just getting angry. So bye.


Here's a song, a friend sent it to me and it's goood. See you :)

Flashbacks.

I guess when you read a title of a post you assume that it's going to be somehow connected to the actual post. Or not. Well I'm not going to write about flashbacks or whatever, I might but that wasn't the plan, but I don't even have a plan I just write the first thing which comes to my mind so I just might end up writing about flashbacks. Blaaah. A friend of mine has just sent me a video about a tiger which attacked people on an elephant because they took her cubs away from her. So they just decided to kill her. Come on! Seriously?! I mean, she did bite one man and she might have stabbed him with her paw but that's what any animal would have done after taking her kids away. Well, nevermind. I just think they shouldn't have shot her. That's all. Now back to me (hhh) I ordered somee wicked skate shoes off Ebay. Can't wait for them to arrive, but that won't happen until the end of March or something like that. And I improved my brain by adding a few more interesting or not so interesting facts. Did you know that WC stands for 'Water Closet'? Whoever I asked seemed to already know that so I guess I was the only person living in ignorance not knowing what WC stands for. That might be funny. And Tic Tacs were first produced in 1969. Is it just me or all the awesome stuff is from the 60's? 

I'm gonna leave now. 

Here's a song.

A song.

Hmm..

Hi, I haven't really been writing anything lately, so here I am. And I know that I said that this post will be kinda different, but I guess it won't. I have this thing in mind but it just seems that I'm too lazy to do it. So nothing about that. One good thing - I'm not on Windows anymore. And it feels so damn good. Since I gave up my Mac dream, I got a Linux Ubuntu instead. And you know what? There isn't a single person I know who thinks that it was a good idea. And that's because they haven't seen anything but Windows ever and I guess not many people like changes and experimenting? Well, I have no idea. Maybe people just like to be stuck with something familiar and you know something that's been there forever. That's ok I guess. From now on I'll try to post at least one post in like two days or something like that. I'll see. I just enjoy writing this crap, but I'd almost forgotten how it feels.. I started writing something else, too, but that's just well, you know, I don't know, blaah.. Looks like I don't actually know anything. So good bye, have a nice day, night, whatever time zone you're in, blaaahh if you are. If you're from some ASdejosie planet that have a nice whatever you have there and so on. 

I hate this town.

There's nothing to do. Ever. Every day is the same. Small differences. Small things make a difference? Not really. Don't have anything to do. Just being trapped here. Anywhere. The worst thing? No one gives a fuck. Nobody is trying to change a thing. One damn thing. Nothing changes, everything stays the same, I stay in this stupid room listening to music, reading books, sleeping. Sleeping my whole life. Sitting. Not doing anything. Yea, I know it's my fault. But I don't know what to do. Why? Because there's nothing to do! Except maybe to write this blog? Well, it still doesn't make a difference. Nothing seems to make a difference. Difference? What the elephant is a difference? Forgot what it means. Bye. 

Expect a next post to be different. Bye again. A song.

Sure.

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that's how i feel today. bye.

A Zebra.

I wrote a really long post, but then I realised that I don't like it at all. So it's gone, and now I'm writing something even worse. My brother wants me to mention him in my new (this) post, so here I am, mentioning him and listening to ekv. They're so amazing that is scares me. Or maybe I should have said they were amazing. No, they still are. Their music lives :) Let's get back to Ivan. I don't really know what to write about him and I haven't even heard from him in a few days. Oh god, maybe he died and nobody remembered to tell me :O I hope he didn't. I'll maybe call him later to check if he's still alive. He has a blog, too. It's not as good as mine, but it's ok. Ahahahah, I'm being evil. Kidding, his blog is awesome. Here's the link. I doubt you'll understand anything if you don't speak Serbian, but he has that google translate thing instaled I think, so that might help. He has this weird writing style that may make you thing he's an idiot if you don't know him, but he's actually a very nice person. And he kinda reminds you to a zebra when you get to know him. But really. By the way, you can visit his blog occasionally, but don't do it very often :) I don't want him to have more visitors than I do. Oh, I'm being mean again :evillaugh: I'm gonna go now. And I forgot to tell you thaaat I ordered a veeriiiiii kuuuul book, and can't wait for it to arrive :) Byeeeeee <3 (click on the heart, cliickk on thee heaart! click it!)

Sunshine.

As you see (or don't) I've got a new keyboard. It's awesome, but I still hate my computer. :S I would really like to throw this stupid PC to trash. Not that it's bad or anything, but I really hate Windows. And you will now say why did you buy it then? Well, I was just a stupid kid thinking about playing sims, and I don't even know if a even knew what a Mac is. Ok, I did, but I was just stupid. Not that I'm smarter now, but I guess I just think different. And I want a Mac. There's not a smallest chance I'll get it in the near future, so I can just enjoy being stuck with a stupid Windows OS. One good thing - most of the snow is gone. And today was actually a sunny day :) At least a little bit. Now, I feel like reading Go Ask Alice or something like that. Ajrin lent me The Celestine Prophecy but I haven't finished it yet. It's a pretty good book, but I just can't make myself read it. I don't know why. I'll go look for a Go Ask Alice ebook now, or maybe just watch a movie or something. I've seen Black Swan earlier this day and it's a totally awkward movie, but good. If you have any good movies or books to recommend please do :) See you in the next post. Bye.

keyboard, oh keyboard.

hello again. whats up? yea whatever. if u noticed that im not using capital letters and some other stuff i usually use - thats cuz my keyboard doesnt work and i have to type (if u can even call this typing) on a virtual one by clicking on the letters with my cursor. up until now ive never actually noticed how orgasmically comfortable it is to type with a normal keyboard comparing to this little thing. a real pain in the ass. and excuse me for bad language and spelling errors but im really pissed off right now. this is really damaging my brain, i even started using abbreviations (uggh that is one long word) such as 'u' and stuff like that and i really hate those. my finger is starting to hurt from all this clicking so i think im gonna go now. see you soon, when im using a normal keyboard again :) (oh, a smiley, looks like im making progress)
bye.

Hey you.

Yea, it's me. Who else could it be... It's a new year. Huh.. Happy New year. I guess. It's still covered with snow. I started thinking that it will never go away. Winter. Screw it. I wouldn't mind if it wasn't cold. Yea, but unfortunately it is.

This was this post's song. I've been listening to it a lot lately. I really hate worms. Maybe they're useful for something and I shouldn't hate them because they're li.. I just realsed that I don't hate them, I'm just afraid of them. I guess we think we hate something what we're actually afraid of. Well, I just found out that I don't hate worms, that might be something. But I still wouldn't want to touch one or whatever :S Nevermind, enough about worms. It's funny how I'm kinda angry at my friend, well not really angry but something weird, and she starts talking about these pies that are really easy to eat, at least according to her. Definitely the right thing to say but what do I do? It doesn't really matter, I don't even know why exactly I wrote this. LASDaslkdfjaslefjsl;/.

Farewell.